我发现我真是老了，因为要坐火车想往MP3里装点歌，第一反应竟然还是西城和玛莉亚凯莉，感觉好像生活在上个世纪。我开始理解老爸老姑他们为什么那么喜欢唱红灯记了。反复听这首HOME，思念着思念的人，永远经典永远纯净的西城，不像今天的歌这么这么世故。

 

another summer day
has come and gone away
in paris or rome...
but i wanna go home
...uhm
may be surrounded by
a million people i
still feel all alone
i just wanna go home
i miss you, you know
and i've been keeping all the letters
that i wrote to you,
each one a line or two
i'm fine baby, how are you?
i would send them but i know that its just not enough
my words were cold and flat
and you deserve more than that
another aeroplane, another sunny place,
i'm lucky i know
but i wanna go home
i've got to go home
let me go home
i'm just too far from where you are
i wanna come home
let me go home
i know i'm alright
baby i'm done
i wanna come home
and i feel just like i'm living
someone else's life
it's like i just stepped outside
when everything was going right
and i know just why you could not come
this was not your dream
but you always believed in me...
another winter day
has come and gone away
in either paris or rome
and i wanna go home
i miss you , you know
let me go home
i've had my run
baby im done
i gotta go home
let me go home
it'll all be alright
i'll be home tonight
i'm coming back home

长春的天亮得很早，4点就大亮了。醒来还以为出了什么事呢。匆匆地把DP送走，又回来送HQ，我今天显得特别友好，连我自己都吃惊。昨天晚上的酒把我喝明白了，我其实不是一个笨人，又有一张一时半会老不下去的娃娃脸用以博取人们的好感，真是天赐。说真的，我知道自己是个虚荣心极强的人，心里极度渴望被赞许。但一个纯粹得不能再纯粹的完美主义者，是不能被赞许的，因为他会心虚，因为他总是提前看到事情的负面，因为我总能看到，所以我不希望被赞许。我不希望这成为一切希望的结束。生活在一个不完美的世界里，人就是要悲观的，要救赎，要自省，要忏悔。我对别人好，我不期望别人对我好，因为我知道这个世界，并不完美。

逝去才显其美。

这是令人感动的景象。

天光一漏，摄魄的金黄，成就这惊鸿一瞥。

不进入这光

是一种罪过

 

六月十二日

 

夕阳无限好，只是近黄昏。。。